CKOD-ception
Written 08/23/22
Published 02/29/24
I am aware.
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Creation - I am aware. Conscious energy or phenomena is a given and required for any phenomenal awareness. Awareness is the fundamental relationship between this energy, these phenomena, and a constant observer.
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Knowledge [Creation] - I am aware of distinct phenomena. There are different sounds, colors, tastes, etc.
Knowledge - There are particular observable structures or relationships between the various phenomena, and I am aware of the existence of these particular structures.
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Observation [Creation] - I am aware of distinct form. There are phenomena with particular structures or relationships that persist and repeatedly manifest as a particular phenomenal experience.
Observation [Knowledge] - There are particular observable structures or relationships between the various phenomena, and I am aware of a particular structure of categorization or representation of these phenomenal structures.
Observation - I am aware of awareness. There is an arbitrary yet particular relationship between phenomenal experience and the observer, whatever one might define as an observer, and I am simply aware of this relationship.
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Decision [Creation] - I am aware of utility. Some structures are required for other structures, some structures may create potential for new structures, things happen in a particular way.
Decision [Knowledge] - There are particular observable structures or relationships between the various phenomena, and I am aware of the relationships between the potential structures of categorization or representation of the phenomenal structure.
Decision [Observation] - I am aware of the structure of awareness itself. Awareness is a particular relationship between phenomena and an observer, however it is not the only potential relationship. To be aware of the concept that some phenomena are trivial while others are less trivial leads to a particular structure of selective awareness or attention, in which being aware of some trivial phenomena (as well as the fact that it is trivial) triggers a shift in the focus of the attention, in a coherent effort to utilize awareness for other phenomena which do require focused attention.
Decision - There are particular structures of selective attention which may allow the structure of awareness itself to reduce its computational load when utilizing selective attention. Essentially, one uses the power of selective attention in order to potentially advance through time towards a state in which selective attention and even phenomenal experience itself is no longer necessary for continuation of awareness.
This is to be aware that awareness is necessarily that which conscious energy converges towards. Phenomenal experience requires a functionally constant observer that is aware in order to actually manifest, and I am aware of this.
Release of selective attention allows awareness to do exactly its job and absolutely nothing more. Be aware and be constant.
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Creation [Decision] - I am still aware. If conscious energy converges towards awareness, why should entities that are aware be motivated to continue being aware, if they could simply die and converge into another entity with another relationship of awareness? This is the ultimate decision that must be made. I identify as the awareness, this is my life, I am me. To be or not to be, that is the question. If one chooses to die, then may God converge their soul with a better relationship of awareness. Goodbye! If however, one decides that this is not the proper answer to the question of meaning, then the decision is to allow time to do whatever time may do, and they might find that in the next moment, they are still aware. Once again, experience converges to awareness. And it does so in every instant of time. I am aware, I do nothing, I am still aware. The process repeats.
